Thursday, March 26, 2009
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Jane, Liz, and me
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Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Ni hao everyone,
When I think about the last week I become overwhelmed with the events that have taken place. Knowing that almost a week ago I was at home making my final “see you laters” and today I am sitting in my apartment in Luoyang, China writing this. When we first arrived I was in shock. I really never thought the day would come. I was “preparing” for it and I knew I had made a commitment to God and the children, but truly I honestly never expected it to happen. After my initial shock, I began to become inwardly irritable and slightly upset with my surroundings and why God had placed me here. I mean it is not everyday that you use the toilet and instead of simply flushing your waste down, you actually fill a bucket up with water and pour it into the toilet hoping that it goes down and stays there, only to throw the paper used into a trash can sitting next to you because the drain system cannot handle it! Adjusting to the smells of China has also been a doozy. The worst part was that at first everything else smelt like China. Now I find myself smelling like China! But then God redirected me like He does so often and reminded me that I was selfish for thinking those thoughts. Who am I to demand things from God? I was reminded of how God responded to Job after he had lost almost everything except his own life, and after looking at the difficulties Job endured that’s probably the one thing he wanted to lose.
Job 38: 4
4 “Where were you when I laid the foundation of the earth? Tell Me, if you have understanding,
5 Who set its measurements? Since you know. Or who stretched the line on it?
6 “On what were its bases sunk? Or who laid its cornerstone.
God continues to respond to Job in this manner for another 35 or so verses. Saying Job, who the heck do you think you are? Were you there when I made the earth, when I made you, when I created time, space, water, birds, fish, mountains, flowers, gravity?! After taking a look at this passage it becomes clear to me that God did not create my life for me! I am not here living on Earth to be comfortable or to bring myself glory. I am not here to look good in the eyes of others. I am here in this world for one purpose and that is to bring glory to God. When I reflect over the events of the past year it becomes very clear to me that God wants me here and was preparing me long before I even realized. Although I am unsure of where and how God is going to lead me from here I am sure of one thing. I am in Luoyang, China to love these kids with everything that I have. To do my best to provide for them emotionally, mentally, and socially because God loves each of them more than I could ever imagine and He has called me to do the same.
1 John 4:19
We love because he first loved us